“How much more grievous are the consequences of anger than the causes of it.”

~Marcus Aurelius

On occasion of the upcoming premiere of the last season of LOST, and since the man of my life hadn’t seen any episodes yet, we decided to start a marathon and watch them all from the start. Today we were watching the last episode of the second season. The one where Desmond becomes so angry from the lies the previous resident of the hatch had told him, that in the heat of the moment he pushes him so hard that he kills him… And he forgets about the button and causes the plane crash.

It made me think of the enormous consequences, sometimes caused by the feeling of anger. Especially anger that gets buried inside of us, anger we don’t even realize we’re feeling unless it’s too late. Sometimes thinking twice or counting to ten doesn’t really help and all advice about anger management only cause more anger! Because the real source of it might be well hidden. Anger is definitely not a good advisor. I’ve done my share of stupid things will being enraged and realised that I had to work in depth, with myself, to release the primary source of my – however righteous – indignation.

You see, no matter what happens in our lives, small or big, a calm mind can handle it better. It’s just stronger. More ready to react in a healthy way, has better judgement to make good choices. It is for certain a life-time journey to arrive to the point of absolute zen, a point we might never achieve completely. But it’s a thing that motivates.

So take a walk outside, alone, whenever you can! -Why not listen to my “Streams” album while you’re at it? - Listen to soothing music, or enjoy the sounds around you. Breath in the air and feel it! Focus within and connect with your center. Listen to that tiny voice that knows what’s really bothering you. Listen closely. Run, jump, pounce, scream if you can, throw pebbles in the sea, get it out, all that buildup of energy! Let it out and be free!

Now I just hope we’ll manage to see the rest 3 seasons before the premiere!

“Nothing is so awesomely unfamiliar as the familiar that discloses itself at the end of a journey.”

~Cynthia Ozick

A couple of years before I left my hometown to go study in another city, I got the feeling from time to time, that it was the town itself pushing me away. Like all those little details that made me think that I would never find a place to love more, suddenly didn’t matter. Or they were transformed into bad things, flaws that ruined my day, all sorts if nuisances that where not worth their trouble.

Now, after 4 years of stay in this lovely – but with its own nuisances – island, with 1 or 2 years left for my studies, I’m considering my return. For many reasons. Mostly professional. But that’s not my point here. When I visit for vacation, and go downtown or take a walk at my old neighborhood, it seems as though it’s a completely different place. Of course 4 years is not a short time for a place to change. But there’s something in the atmosphere that was never there before, no matter how many new buildings or people came to be during the years of my life there.

I think there’s only one good explanation to this. It’s not really the place that changed so much. It’s me. The new me. The new self that got out of the nest, out of the safety and jumped right into the sea of endless possibilities. Where choices matter and responsibility is a mountain that opens two doors: the door of strength and the door of burden. I chose the first one.

The end of this journey is a familiar place, a familiar friend wearing his/her clothes inside-out. I believe some of you have felt it at some point. If not, I suggest that you try at least to find a way to distance from something that doesn’t seem to fulfill its purpose in your life anymore. A work, a place, a relationship… And maybe later on, if you get back to it, both of you might be at the same phase, resonating the same energies again, compatible. If not, I guess you grew apart… or it never was the right thing in the first place.

But which will be your choice of door?

So here it is, once again… This special time of year. The holiday, the celebration. Everything dressed in beautiful lights and glowing colors. A time to take a break, from the daily endeavors and struggles, to breathe. Leaving behind our worries, even for just a minute… A time to recapture our faith in miracles, to regain our strength and… redream! At this time, I’m sending you my best wishes, for health, for inner power, for wisdom, for courage to go on. I’ll seal this wish with a song. My own rendition of a more gloomy Silent Night (in minor), dancing away with Silent Talk, the song that has found its way into many people’s hearts this year. You can watch the video from YouTube or download the mp3 from ReverbNation.

Merry Christmas,

Eliethel

The thoughts that lingered in my mind
I had to change to words
I wished they’d stayed inside of me but
now they fly like birds
They run away and make you see
They make you realize
That even I get scared sometimes
and tears can fill my eyes

Maybe you’ve hoped that I was strong
and I could never break
But there are some things in this life
that even I can’t take
But there’s no need for you to try
to make everything right
I’ve lost my will, my courage and strength and
I’m giving up this fight

For you shall hear these worries no more
I’ll shut the window and lock the door
I’ll put a chain and break the key
And you will never set me free
I chose this cage over freedom any day
It’s much more honest to see it this way
It’s better to know that you’re not free
than pretent you’ re something that you cannot be
And you shall hear these worries no more
I’ll shut the window and lock the door
I’ll put a chain and break the key
And you will never set me free
I chose this cage over freedom any day
It’s much more honest to see it this way
It’s better to know that you’re not free
than to pretent that you are something you cannot be

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